christmas is coming(:

hello world, after almost more than one month not posting here(: i know my blog is dead, but ah wells(: lets liven it up.

and so, FHL3 is over and band has stopped for the rest of the holidays till Christmas is over, a least. its alright. i have another 3 weeks. i'm going to hong kong next week, which promises to be exciting(:

ohh ohh ohh. ley me tell you about the time i spent 5 days 4 nights in school with 2 consecutively camps. it was terrible. no one should ever have to go through that): both camps were alright, its just. school. got. too. boring. after. 3. days. and. i. actually. started. missing. home. BLAR. i did i did. haha. anyhow, i got to know siew may and victoria better, and made lotsa new friends too. which was cool.

and now, in a while, i'm going to watch a concert in the esplanade. haha. with my mum. lols.. dont really know what its about, then we're going shopping for stuff for either christmas or winter clothes. and i realise that i dont have any shoes to wear out cos i just washed my converse and my school/sports shoes has a really large hole/gash in it, and I REFUSE TO WEAR COURT SHOES. cos they hurt major much. haha

i'm kinda worried cos i have to finish my hw before i leave for hk, but i'm not halfway done yet. and i find myself doing other things, like going out and BLOGGING like i am now, with my physics paper sitting in front of me, remaining empty while i kill my brain cells willing it to complete itself! haha.not going to happen, but anyway! i'm going wonky. and i'm not actually willing it to do itself, i'm just plain ignoring it. i'm actually still worried about what shoe i'm going to wear later, and that i'm not going for the bbq tonight in the skirt i'm wearing, and how i'm not going anyway cos my mum wants to go shopping,

AND HOW IF MY MUM DOESN'T GET OFF THE PHONE RIGHT NOW AND START GETTING READY< WE"RE GONNA BE REALLY LATE.

not like me being on the computer helps much, but i'm ready at least. HA.

i find myself being bored, but i know i have lots of things to do. BUT i finished packing my room on saturday!! hooray for me! i started at 5 in the evening and finished, really completed at 5 am.. lols. didnt sleep, but its worth it. now my table is clean and clear, prepared for a new year of work. OMG its O LEVELS next year. boohoo. its terrifying just thinking about that, so i shant. not yet anyway.

do you think the teachers will collect the holiday hw? ok. i'll do it anyway but... heehee **evil grin**

anyway, i think i will post again before christmas, but incase i dont, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ONE AND ALL AND HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

haha! shall save my profound thoughts for the next post. if there is any! haha

ciao!

A really fruitful one week

This one week has passed exceedingly quickly. It has been an extremely amazing week which i formed substantial bonds of friendships and learnt ALOT!!! Well, i went for work attatchment this week in this law firm called rodyk and davidson. we were free clarical labour for them, but learnt alot about the working world in how a law firm works. it was an awesome experience in which i did so many things and feel so accomplished. Now when i come home, i realise that my printer cum scanner cum fax machine is really really slow. Nothing compared to the one they use in the office definately.

Also doring this one week, i talked and got to know Liana and Shimona more. think about it, we talked more in this 5 days than the 2 years we were in the same class. elizabeth was also a really fun person to be with(: awesome bunch of people with an awesome bunch of mentors. i know i'm glad its over cos its really tiring but i know that i'll miss it too. AWWW! haha. alright. shall post again soon(:

p.s. thanks to everyone who made this possible

one thing pasts another comes

hey ho! its been some time since i actually posted. haha. missed me? i bet not. anyway! all the exams are over, spa is over. i screwed it up but who's gonna care about that till like next year when i get back my o lvl results. its so far in the future still. HAHA. ok not so long ago but then... ah well.

next week is work attatchment and i'm excited! i think its going to be really fun and a totally cool experience. i'm gonna have to go shopping with my mum for clothes. its going to look and feel wierd but i guess its just one week. no harm(: uber cool! do you actually realise that tomorrow is like the LAST DAY OF THE SCHOOL YEAR!

AWESOME AND HOLY! though i'll pretty much be in school for cca and camps and stuff like really frequently, but still! i'm relishing the thought of sleeping later than 7(:

ok on a lower note, i didnt exactly do very well for the exams. below even my own expectations which is really bad cos my own expectations were not high at all, and may even be considered low by some. haha. ANYWAY! its over. i'm gonna look to the future!

gonna go now! see you soon

its over(:

exams are over. woohoo. for now. haha. next tuesday is like chem spa but i guess i'll worry about it when the time comes(: got back many many subject papers today and i guess its alright. not as bad as i imagined? okie dookies. i think im going to watch videos in youtube lols(: seeya

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averil is really sorry about the last post. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i lost it. i was insane. i was crazy. i'm sorry. ):

wwalking away, backing off

i guess it all changes from here. what i did yesterday will be the one thing that changes the whole thing forever. for me. because i doubt they will be affected by it much. i dont even feel like talking to them cos acting like nothing happened is just plain stupid. but i dont think i'm wholly in the wrong. yes, i was wrong in just walking off, but i was really very annoyed. most of the time when i'm pissed no one even notices. cos i cant stand it when like people just wait around and waste time and tell the rest of us not to waste time... so like... what the hell? and anyway, she did say that i should just leave if i wanted to. so back at you. i guess it was like the 1st time i ever got so emotional and the very 1st time i actually walked off from anyone like that. and by the time they notice i was gone, it was already 50 minutes later and i was home sweet home. tells you just how significant i am. anyway i dont know anything they do or are doing until they do it, so i guess that shows already. i doubt i'll be dead if they see this because well, what i'm saying here, they know already. i didnt know about no clip and didnt know about no note, and i didnt know about no lunch till hey! wanna come? or hey, you better say you're commin. and i know they will say, we didnt force you to come, not happy dont go lah. but well, whatever. i'm tired of this. they dont know or care about the minority people who are not in their "clique" and hey guess what, the rest of us cant ignore it cos well, we just plain lose out when the whole thing is over cos well, we are part of the team. whether they like it or not.

anyway, thanks chien wen for lending me a shoulder to cry on yesterday, i think i made you late. but thanks anyway. i'll return the favour some day.

may the next post be a happier one. cheers to a brighter future.

choices

more often than not, choices have to be made. choices can be dificult, easy, confusing, and the sort. however, some decisions seem to tear you apart. sometimes these decisions are detrimental, sometimes they seem to rip us apart. not all choices are difficult, however. for example, what to eat, what to wear. let us explore the difficulty when we make choices.

sometimes, people are afraid to make choices because they are afraid of the outcome of their choice.as the saying goes, every action has a consequence. similarly, every decision and choice have a consequence too. however afraid we are to make decisions, they are a necessary part of daily life. many people spend numerous hours thinking "what if... i'ld made a different decision?" "what is i said something different?" or "what would have been different if.... " after they'ld made a decision. it is a good thing to be reflective and thoughtful. however, thinking too much, and dwelling too much on what might have been is a total waste of time. why not spend the time thinking about how to make what we have, or the decisons we'ld made and the situation we're in better?

it is important that we are allowed to relax and smile at the end of the day, thinking that we'ld made the right decision. we would be able to smile and pat ourselves on the back. however, wrong decisions and choices are an impertiment part of life and everyone makes wrong choices from time to time.

since choices are essential, cant be correct 100% of the time, we should always remember that everything happens for a reason. there is always the light at the end of the tunnel, the silver lining around every cloud. by lightening up and relaxing, we would be happier and think clearer. thus we would be able to make right choices! its a wonderful cycle.-- hapapy people make good decisions, and after making right choices, people would be happy(:


(: hee. i gtg now for piano lesson. for anyone who actually read it, i just felt like writing something not about my feelings and what's going on for a change.

a long week

hey yo! i know i haven't exactly been posting. so this blog is kinda dead. ah well. i'm here now and that's what matters most.. okay. so then the last week can break my record of least slept hours through the week. haha. fri was investiture. it was alright except for the last part where we got scolded. yeah.

next week is gonna be crap as well! mon tue wed sat there's band practice? like they want us to concentrate on our studied but on the other hand they demand we go back for practices almost every other day? common! my studies are already like whoa. my chem CMI, and the others are not that far away. hai. well, i guess its just another 1/2 more year plus plus plus. i'm not going to Sydney. i doubt i'll be able to make the 20 pt mark. i barley made it for mid yrs. and that tells you what? even if i make it? my parents outright forbid this. no convincing will do any good. so i'm not gonna be stupid and try.

i'm really sorry, but if you ask me how i feel about b*** right now, i'm gonna tell you i hate it. really really really hate it. and i cant help it. i mean, i dont really make a difference, i'm not really significant, and not really a part of it, i try to include myself, but i'm not really one who leaches and forces myself onto other ppl. i know most who see this are gonna be super pissed.

blehhh

its hard): but i'm trying... i really gotta go try find my ss ws now!!!! gonner!

A change in the tides.

nothings ever gonna get me down again. thats a promise. lol. haha. woots(: its some personal thing, though like i think its for the better, well people do tend to wander from their goals and resolutions. i'm gonna be an agreeable, happy, positive and absolutely calm, composed person who doesnt take things to heart. i'm gonna be detatched from somt things. like just wait for it to be over! haha. and i'm free. no matter how many things are going on at the same time, nothing terrible can happen, thus just go on(: remember when i once said what cant kill you can only make yu stronger? its true. positively, absolutely! haha. anyhow, i've really gotta go now to pepare for this coming, crazy, week. its gonna be super fulfilling i tell you. there are so many tests and so many things i gotta do before it ends(: i can do it! haha.

anyway, not many ppl actuall come here except for a few who usually tag, or the rest who come but do not tage (like stalkers) haha(: its alright. nothing offensive in here anyway(: alright. i really gotta go now(: whee. see you soon(:

p.s. probably wont be blogging soon
p.p.s. swimming rocks(: