control to the point of madness

~Friendship is able to prevail so long as one party is unaware, or is willing to overlook some things.

That statement was written in my lit book. well, it is true. i realised. because now is the time. i'm faced with this problem. i've got two options as of now.

1) Scream my head out and shout. Demand an explanation. Talk it out, clear the misunderstanding if it is one, which i doubt.
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2)Pretend it does'nt bother me. Pretend everythings alright. Pretend that nothing is wrong.

It took all my will power today to do number two. Its surprising how patient and in control i can be when the situation needs it. I guess i'll have to go with number two until i explode, but i hope the situation is not as bad as i think it is. But i have to say that this issue has a great impact on me. i mean, today i was really.. on the verge of letting go. you know, control isnt easy. Esp in the sci lab. sometimes you just snap. sometimes you feel as though you have to snap. Sometimes, like today, i just laugh, just find the slightest funny thing, and laugh.. and laugh... and laugh... i guess that is a way to let go.

Even the strongest of ppl cant conceal their emotions 100% of the time. let alone me. i, who can even control my frustration when we're doing grp work.

Yeah... and i'm definately sick as of now. i feel all cold inside.. a chill i think. my nose is stuck, and my head is spinning. hai. what to do? and next week is march hols. i was hoping to rest a bit. i guess i'll have to now that i'm sick...