moving on.

now that the year has really ended, i feel that, yeah, its sad leaving 2/4. and its sad that everything is going to be new from next year onwards. its sad because i felt it ended on a bad note. but what can i do now? its over. that can be a good thing, but it can be a bad thing too. i go to my friends blogs and i see how much fun they've had. their taggs of love to each other. its as if i dont fit into the equation at all. i guess i asked for it. i'll miss them, sure. but lets face it. i hardly know half of them as well as i would like, and i love half of them less than they deserve. its going to be a new year, a new beginning. and as ms nandar said, we have got to let go of the potato sacks that we are carrying. sounds easy doesnt it? so why am i still worrying? the holidays have begun, and i enjoyed myself last week. but somehow, i feel more alone than ever. haha. maybe its because... i DONT FIT IN ANYWHERE!!!!!! i'm only saying all this here because hardly anyone comes here. even in crowded places, even when i'm surrounded by people who know me. yeah. so tell me, what exactly am i good at. the truthful answer, would be 'nothing'. uhhuh. and i would agree. URG! @#$%@#$^%&^%$

so when it finally comes down to it what IS the point? why am i doing this to myself?!