Yesterday was ZOO MOO MOO. Oh yeah. After about a year of not visiting my non-human friends in the Zoo, we were reunited yesterday. The trip to the zoo was fun :D With lots of laughter, sarcasm ect. It greatly saddens me that i probably won't be seeing my friends again anytime soon, but ah well, that's life. Yesterday i was saying something, then someone, idk who, was like "oh yeah i saw it in your blog" Eek. Sometimes i do wonder who comes here, what who sees. In this respect, blogging is scary.
There is something that i wanna say but i have no idea how it's gonna come out or how anyone's gonna take it. When i see stuff, read stuff, i think too much. This is bad. I mean, i see someone talking about something and i just... feel. Maybe it's me being insecure. Sensing emotions and people's thoughts can be a blessing and a curse. "Don't take on the problems of others", you once told me. But they're there. It's like they're shouting it into my face. How does anyone not get it? Blocking it all out is just... dumb isn't it?
i feel messed up :/ I'm so tired, so so tired. I'll rather get scolded, screamed at. But there's this sense that you don't really care anymore, and that scares me. Scares me to the core.
Usually reading drowns it all away, usually i can be brought into a state of oblivion when i read. I hate that i couldn't concentrate at all, i hate that even after reading for 3 hours and feeling a sick sense of exhaustion, i still needed eyore to be with me while i drowned myself in music before falling into a deep, uneasy sleep. I hate crying myself to sleep because its such a lonely feeling. Plus, crying never helps. For the first time ever, i hugged eyore the whole night through. --You're my knight, the one who's there when everyone else is gone.
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