Travelling with them has always had a negative impact on my disposition. At some points it really felt like I grew up and they remained in the drama that was high school. It's not really that I grew up, but that at some point the things that excited me and made me happy changed. Looking back at the past week, I said and did things I should never have. That chapter has needed closing for so long, but I'm not one who shuts people out of my life even if I should. In fact I actively walk into shit holes most of the time. Perhaps its time for me to change as well, thought that will take some doing.

'You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end
Always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit I was glad it was over'

Ffw to back home now, where things are the same as before. Just that the smallest things bother me now. People and things and all the rest... I'm glad I still have someone to rant to.