Look in my eyes and tell me what you see

Yeah.. what do you see when you look at me? a stupid girl who makes a fool outta herself... yeah i guess.. anyways, i'm so tired. i've got loads to do, but i'm tired and i guess i am lazy... i AM so ... i dont know.. they all say its stress.. but some ppl i know say sec 2 hw n projects are managable and even easy.. i do not know. i guess it is stress. i am stressed .. it seems wierd saying it like that these are not the kinda things i usuially go round telling the world. but well.. eeeekkkk. Maths test today was alright i guess. not that difficult in my opinion.. okok. anyway, i guess i've still gotta put up a brave front and pretend that i'm alright .. but like as if la...

I am glad that i've got friends who are always here for me,, and an annoying brother who makes me help him with his maths hw.. but i'll admit it takes my mind of my own problems when i'm helping him with his problem sums.. not that they are difficult, but well... they move my mind away from what i am thinking at the moment you know what i mean..

anyway, i do not know... i'm seriously confused.. anyway,, i guess the way i am, i;m just waiting to fall down, to fall sick, anything to give me a break. or maybe i should go into a coma and give my brain a break. i dont know.. ppl survive, so will i... i;m no weak person. i am emotionally strong , i have always been, and hopefully will always be.. but it seems evident that that aspect of me is going to wonderland...

i was just thinking abt the old me. the me last time.. the me that used to speak my mind. always be straight forward, never be afraid of humans, even seniors or teachers.. i guess that part of me has gone down the drain i guess i've changed more than i know.. more than i'll admit. i hardly know who i am any more........