After the exams...

time flies. i'm glad that the exams are over, but somehow i'm not exactly in the celebrating mood. today had lunch wth nat and kim. had breakfast wth ju lyn and crystal. went to library. sigh. i'm tired. exhausted. my mind races ahead to the problems i'm about to face. races back to those i left unattended to before the exams. i dont know what to do. i'm not in the wrong right? i mean,i didnt do anything to you, yet you made me the bloody baron. ok. i dont know why i used that phrase. maybe its because the exams are over that i think about those things. yes. i should listen to advice. i should ignore, should leave out. but i dont want to. i know that once i see your cards lying on the table, i wont be able to face the reactions. i know that i'm not in the wrong, so i dont have to care about it. so am i the victim? no right? ok i dont know what i'm talking about. i dont care. i dont want it to happen. i know its inevitable unless i forget about the whole thing, but i cant. so i'm going crazy. message, bottom line.