i've seen hidden meanings in the simple things that i did today. simple facts about myself that i've forgotten or not noticed. for example, i was sitting in the public bus and i wondered why there were seats facing the opposite direction. there are four seats facing the bus on each side, closer to the drivers seat. i was sitting on one of those seats facing the back of the bus. at that point, there was no one else occupying the three other seats facing the back of the bus. as i saw many people facing the front while i was facing the back, i was wondering, is it that i dwell too much on the past and past events, past problems? or is it that i live in the past, and cant move on. many will say that i'm reading too much into things, but what if it was telling me something? what if i was meant to sit in that seat and make this realisation? i guess it kinda fits too. i cant let go. why cant i let go? yeah. as someone once told me, if i didnt like her, it shouldnt be so difficult. but why do i find it so difficult to let go?
today as i was eating lunch with mavis, i felt a sense of familiarity. like i've beent in that position before. yes. i have. and its like the last week of school already! i know this is not a big deal, and i'm sure i will NOT miss school.. will be seeing much of it anyway. wont miss it. its a sense that i'm going to leave everything behind. haha. anyway, i dont know. we still have till the end of the year! we'll work at it! ok(: goodluck every one
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