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ok. to reply to nat tongs question on how i am coping wth what? some subjects right, i'm not btw. lol. i dont know what to say. there are so many things going on and so many things to do. and i feel downright guilty turning on the computer in the 1st place and i seem to be running in 2 different directions at the same time without knowing which is correct. both are correct... lol. how? i'll end up splitting into 2. ah. lol. you mean life is just like that? at this age? lol. i dont think so right? i go crazy and laugh and make fun and lol. do wierd stuff. its because there is no other outlet to push it all into. i wanna go wonky. then i'll live in my own fantasy, in my own world. but then right now, reality is still on the surface and escape doesnt seem to be an option.