Thoughts and feelings.

(: So i'm in the midst of my exams. And somehow i'm wondering what's happened to everything that i'm doing... I've got no will to study. I'm going to fail everything that I've sat for till now... I'm feeling so so tired. It's like i'm in a bubble, unable to get out, unable to feel anything. A friend has been telling me that i'm really negative. But really... I dont know. Its just... I really dont know. I was so looking forward to going home, but somehow, there's nothing much to look forward to when I go back either. There's no one to talk to who really understands. I dont know... Everything's going wrong. socially, emotionally, academically. There's no reason to hold on to anything.

'Its OK', he tells me. 'If you want to go. Everyone wants you to stay. I want you to stay more than I've ever wanted anything in my life.' His voice cracks with emotion. He stops, clears his throat, takes a breath, and continues. 'But that's what I want and I could see why it might not be what you want. So I just wanted to tell you that I understand if you go. It's OK of you have to leave us. It's OK if you want to stop fighting.'-- Gramps, If I stay. (Gayle Forman)

Maybe its becuase i'm reading books like that..

I dont usually do this... but :

Lead me Lord, lead me by the hand
And make me face the rising sun
Comfort me through all the pain
That life may bring
There's no other hope
That I can lean upon
Lead me Lord Lead me all my life
Walk by me, walk by me across
The lonely road that I may face
Take my arms and let your hand
Show me the way
Show the way to live inside your heart
All my days, all my life