february.

And so, the month of February has begun. I do realise that my blog is dead, and anyway my thoughts are just about overflowing so tadah, i'm here. usually when i blog i'm happy or feel really passionately abt what i'm saying. Otherwise, the post would be painfully short. SO now, i'm sitting here, when i'm supposed to be studying for my Chem test tmr. i'm here, tired, drained. lols. i really have no idea who comes to my blog, but i dont think this contains anything bad or wrong.

This week has been terrible. end now. please end now. its not easy, no one ever said it was, but i'm scared. bomb shell dropped, sydney is a no. rushed around like mad,carried council and band uniform to school, ran all over the place, lost my wallet. dad's home now, and i'm nurse. i'm scared. what if i do something wrong? what if like i accidently drop his leg OO so dead. i'm terrified.

i'm tired. i really am. everyone's gonna !@#$ me, and i'm just gonna !@#$% myself. sighs. just let me go.